It's so crazy to look back years and years and see where I was then and who I am now. It's a little sad to know that some of the things I was so insecure about then are still haunting me now. They affect my relationships, my energy levels, my happiness. I guess I need to be willing to work even harder, or let go a little more, or just be kept accountable by people. I never did make it to California. I did, however, make it to Ireland and England and Scotland and Wales and Croatia and Vancouver B.C., Washington, New York, New Jersey, Connecticut, Rhode Island, Pennsylvania, Maryland, Washington, Oregon, Colorado, Wyoming and Quebec Canada! I did a DTS and I got my heart shattered like never before, I followed God to Quebec for a screen acting school and realized how much I love and am gifted in acting, I met and fell in love with my best friend and now I am struggling to be better because I need to be and I want to be the best for him or risk losing him. I feel like a fraud sometimes. Like I'm just a nice girl who doesn't really have a lot to offer. I can be selfish and fearful and a people pleaser. I've come a long way in those things, but not far enough. I don't want to be afraid anymore. I'm supposed to go home in a couple weeks with Pablo. We're going to meet my family. I'm afraid of the next step. Our plan was to go to Chile and get married in the Spring. I'm praying that is still the plan. I guess I just need to relinquish control to God again. Everything is in p r o c e s s...