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"Lord, make me an instrument of your peace!
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy."


you know, i'm really blessed with some incredible people in my life. i've had the opportunity to spend time with some people that just make it so evident that God is real, and He lives within His children. I've spent the past four years being scared so much of the time to be myself in fear of embarrassing someone else or annoying the heck out of them. But after giving all that i had and was to this last guy I dated I realized... the ONLY person I should ever change myself for is Jesus and changing my character and not being myself will never be asked of me. He's okay with how stupid and obnoxious I can be. He's okay with the fact that I have a drink sometimes and I like to walk out of the bathroom in my underwear and that I laugh too loud and get a kick out of really stupid things. That doesn't embarrass him. He loves me for ME. I think that's what's been so amazing about the people I've found myself surrounded with lately too. They love me for ME. Not for who they can change me into or for what I can do for them. It's beautiful.
I got to see my dear friend Jeremy. I thought about how close he and I used to be when he first started coming around. After he and Andrea got together and I got back together with Piper we just didn't talk anymore really. Still loved the kid to pieces. But we lost touch and became too consumed in things that were tearing us from who we are. I saw him two nights ago and holy crap. It was like I had my best friend back and we were gonna take over the WORLD!!!! hahaha. best hug EVER!!! I've decided that I'm going to make it a point to hang out with him as much as I can. He gets it. He's one of the few dudes in my life that I know we can talk about ANYTHING and we can hang out and be as stuuuuuuuuuuuupid as we want in front of each other, and we'll just laugh about it. God is redeeming the relationships in my life that I have missed. I couldn't be more happy for that!

I feel like I'm FINALLY where He wants me to be so the desires of my heart are becoming a reality. My band is taking off. We leave in early September for Atlanta to record our full length with Josh Scogin. Then We head to Norway with The Chariot in October for a tour with them and Benea Reach. ten days in Norway. I've never been on tour. and I've never even been to Canada! wtf?! hahaha. I'm moving to Chicago. I think I'm getting an apartment at least for six months with my bff Andrew. It's going to be pretty out of control. I'm planning to road trip to California to see my darling Carleen Uribe!!!!! and also my friend Matthew who just recently moved to L.A. I'm working out again. I'm seeing people. I'm living and loving as much as I possibly can and it's amazing. God is amazing.

i'm just more than ready to LIVE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!